Firstly my mind is in a total mess! It put me in a tight spot where i finally felt like i have been defeated. I have lost even before the war has started. I just don't know what to do anymore. As much as i don't want to raise the white flag, i have to admit i found someone who is capable to put me down. As much as i am happy but at the same time i felt worst.He put me in a spot where i have never imagine before. My life has been question and for the first time in my life i was caught in my own position. He left me to ponder about a lot of things. I am sorting it one at a time. I am finding myself again. It is so depressing to know that someone knows all your lil dark secret and know who exactly you are behind that girl you always put up. Because of that i just don't know how to face him despite the facts that i am missing him. I feel so ashamed of myself. I am changing slowly towards the Almighty. As close as i want to be with HIM, the obstacles just grew harder and stronger.Thus shall...
